I had a great conversation with my friend Isabel the other day. Our talk ended with me looking back at my past and those bad memories. I have had many counseling sessions in my life because once I made a suicide attempt and then later on I lost my baby in a miscarriage. Counselling and talking to Trevor, my husband has helped conquer the depression that I suffered with.
At my age of 41, you would think that I would have full control of my emotions especially as I know really well that my inner self controls my outer self. But it’s not the case, that inner little girl is still there who needs love and care from her Daddy, which I feel I never got. The result of that has been years of low self-esteem and self-doubt. But then I realized that I should love the little girl that still was alive in me. This is my life and no one controls it but me. Inner peace comes from love and I choose to live a lovable life. I know that past emotions cannot be flushed away so it helps to recognize these problems, find their root cause and get rid of these feeling with love and forgiveness.
I believe that we should start our day fresh with positive thoughts in our mind and heart. Now I make sure to find that little girl inside me and work on removing all her fears. I work to recognize the faults in me and make peace with them and move on. Loving myself and the things that I have in life helps me find inner peace.